Show up.

Showing up is the hard part.

Lately, I've been struggling to show up to my life, for myself.

Maybe that sounds a bit confusing, but allow me to explain.

We all want certain things, correct? Maybe you want to be fitter, leaner, more toned, have more money, squat heavier, eat healthier, be more efficient at work, be kinder, be gentler, be a better partner, etc. The list goes on. We all want something, whether its material, physical or emotional. You want something, and so do I.

Maybe you know you want to be leaner, fitter, or eat healthier.

Maybe you know you need to be a better partner, friend, child or parent. Maybe you know you need to be more effective and task-orientated at work.

Maybe you know all this stuff ... but maybe you're not doing anything about it.

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I knew I wanted to lose a few pounds/kilos that I have put on. I knew I want to be kinder, friendlier, more energetic and more confident. However, was I showing up to attain those things? Was I waking up and going to bed earlier? Was I creating and making time for things to help me reach my goals? Was I putting my wants, first?

Well truthfully: I wasn't ... until now.

If I want to be fitter and more confident, I have to wake up an hour earlier in order to create a healthy gym routine. I have to prioritize and make healthier food choices.

I know if I want to stop picking at foods, I need to hold myself accountable to the snacking and trigger food temptations. I need to eat more wholesome meals and call myself out on my shit.

If I want to be a better co-worker, I need to ensure my lists are getting accomplished and my mind is focused.

If I want to be friendlier, kinder, more energetic and overall happier, I know I need to rest when its necessary and have some quality "me-time" in order to being positive vibes.

So you see, I knew what I needed to do, but I wasn't acting on it.

I was continuing to buy trigger foods, get shitty sleep, sleep through my alarm and drink caffeine way too late. I was not making any "me-time" which reflected increasing anxiety and internal chaos. I wasn't showing up for myself, nor my wants and desires.

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Making and keeping promises to yourself increases confidence as it shows a sign of respect, enthusiasm and commitment. When you show up for yourself and take the necessary actions in order to achieve what you have set out to do, you create a spark of momentum. You create time, and put in adequate effort to being your highest self - making continuing along your journey, much easier.

Reaching your goals will not happen overnight. It takes time, discipline, diligence and effort. You must repeat these new habits and thought patterns you desire, until they become a hard-wired part of you. You must refrain from reverting back to your old ways, and be accepting and kind to yourself if you do.

You must show up, by not only saying what you are going to do - but actually do it, too.

Remember not making a choice, is making a choice.

Show up, by calling yourself out on your shit, making the time, and going forward at all given costs.

xo,

dee