twenty.twenty

TWOSEROONENINE

(WAS SHIT)

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Thank fuck it's over. Seriously.

That one gave me a run for my fucking money. BYE BYE.

twenty.twenty goals:

1. Be less fucking critical.

I tear myself apart so aggressively, and it's extremely unhealthy. I need to be kinder to myself, and remember that im a work in progress NOT a work in perfection. There is more to life than a hot body (slash// the body that I'm currently ashamed of), defined muscles and hot quads, yknow? The Mona Lisa has a crooked smile, so why can't I have a few flaws?

2. Follow my joys.

If something no longer makes me happy, or if something no longer enhances my life - I'm out, immediately. Life is too short for toxic people, places, and jobs.

3. Acknowledge my fears, without giving them control.

My fears have been in the driver seat for a long time, and they really shouldn't even be a passenger. They're useful, but not thaaattttt fucking useful. If my fears aren't saving me from a bear, I'm probably not gonna listen to them very often, anymore.

4. Give more.

In order to get more, I need to give more. I need to give more love, more time, and more joy, in order to receive those things back.

5. Work smarter, not harder.

Seriously, I kill myself with work that doesn't even really satisfy me. I drain myself in 60+ hour work weeks with multiple jobs that don't belong to my passions. This year, I want to focus on doing more fulfilling work, while having a better work-life balance. Lets be real, it's hard to meet people when you're always fucking working.

6. Travel.

My wanderlust is striking big, and although I don't necessarily want to uproot my life to Australia or New Zealand right now, I do want to explore the shit out of about 950 places. I don't feel a sense of belonging where I currently am, and am therefore very eager to find my home.... Bring on the travel bug!

7. Be disciplined with my emotions, not the stories in my head.

I don't care if I skipped the gym 3times that week. If my energy and brain say no, you need a walk, not a workout, I'm listening and taking a step back. I'm no longer going to force myself through shitty workouts when my brain just isn't in it. I'm also no longer going to force myself to eat shitty foods or hangout with shitty people if I feel down know that's not what I want.

8. Take massive risks.

I will take bigger risks. Whether it is financially, career or relationship oriented, I refuse to get in my way any longer.

9. Leave the bullshit behind.

Embrace my needs. I have a need for sunshine, nature, my mental health and being outdoors. I missed out on years of that by forcing myself to go workout instead of be outside, miss events, miss gatherings, miss out on life. My passion is often seen as aggressive and my excitement is seen as "too much". I've realized I will always be too much for someone - but to someone, I'll be just enough. I'm going to embrace that thought more and hold myself accountable to being me.

10. Gain back my confidence.

My confidence took a solid hit over the past 3 years in specific. It's time I reign that shit in and get it back. This year isn't just about owning. My needs, but it's also about getting my MOJO, my confidence and my life back. My excitement lies within me when I feel good in my skin. I'm going to focus on putting less of what makes me feel like shit in my body, and start focusing on what makes me feel good. All the good from rest, food, conversations, environments and people. Good. Good. Good. Only!

xo

dee