Daydreamer

Do you dream of more?

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Do you dream about being more, doing more, experiencing more, living more and loving more?

I know, I do.

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The negativity bias in our brains, makes us hold back from fulfilling our dreams. The negativity bias hinders us from looking at abundance, gratitude and potential opportunities. The negativity bias, is a fucking asshole.

The negativity bias is the voice saying:

"I'm not good enough"

"Everyone else is already doing it"

"I will never be successful"

"I can't do it"

"I will never be as good as her"

"It's already been done"

"I don't know where to start"

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[ I am such a day dreamer]

I literally could lay my dreams out on this keyboard right now, and just flow with my dreams and passions, my desires and longings.

(...truthfully, I have a blog saved in my "drafts", stating all of it.

However, I will wait to publish it at a different time).

I zone out on the world, on the ground, at my book, or honestly, at nothing - fixated on visualizing what I long for, and where I see my life going.

I see my dreams, unfolding into these great movies in my mind. I see everything I desire, I see the results of my hard work, and I see the passion in my eyes. However, the seeds I plant, and how I have planted them - I can not see. And thats the hardest part.

The "How?" is what holds me back from making moves, and creating waves.

The same "How?" is what holds you back, too.

I know my desires of owning a medium sized home, with a lovely front porch, big back yard with a deck and seating area, exist. I see my house being complete with a friendly and comforting dog, wonderful husband, living in a beautifully decorated and landscaped neighbourhood, with constant sunshine and warmer climates.

I can see it. But how do I get it?

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I am a day dreamer. I dream all day long.

I know, I was made for more.

More peace.

More help.

More selflessness.

More guidance.

MORE LOVE.

I know deep in my heart, I was born to help, assist, guide, teach and be an outlet for others. For what? I don't know. But I feel my soul feeling empty, without more purpose and without more selflessness.

I know deep in my heart, that I struggled through certain areas of my life, in order to teach and help others. I know my suffering is meant to be used to help those around me, whom may be suffering, as well.

My experiences are meant to create waves, love and stillness, in someone else's storm.

I know, I was made for greatness.

I know I was meant for more.

However, I don't know where to start.

[Ever feel like a fish, out of water?

Yeah, It's kind of like I feel like that - all the fucking time]

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In recent mental breakdowns, I've recognized how empty my cup is becoming with the current work I am doing. What once used to fill me up, give me sparkle and joy, now drains me of my energy and demoralizes my self-worth. It is soul-sucking shittiness; and it is taking me away, from my true self.

I have become ashamed of the work I was once proud to do, and no longer feel that it is serving me.

(...my day dreams are becoming foggy and misinterpreted due to my dissatisfaction with the things going on around me. and truthfully, now is not the time to become foggy).

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I believe that we all go through these transitional periods in life.

I actually believe that life, in itself - is a constant transition.

"Change is the only constant"

-Unknown.

I believe this quote to be true.

Although, I am truly not sure whom said it first, but fuck - its a goodie.

This transitional period is a testing time of your resilience, your growth and development over your past time.

This transitional period is a test of heart, or head.

Which will you choose?

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Personally, I choose to day dream.

I choose to dream because I know the exhaustion, fatigue and helplessness that comes over me, is trying to guide me away from the current work I am doing.

[I will say it again...

It is fucking soul-sucking]

It's in these transitional periods, that zoning out, (potentially foggy and smoggy), day dreaming, is an essential tool, to provide you with your calling. Day dreaming is the souls calling for you. It is your spiritual guidance, introducing you to your next steps.

[Your higher self knows your next steps, before your conscious self, does]

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Life is full of ebbs and flows.

It is full of wonderful experiences, beautiful opportunities, heart-wrenching heartbreak, disappointments and missed shots. It is full of wins and losses. And without these constant changes in our lives, how on earth could we embrace each moment?

We must fall, before we can appreciate the ability to stand.

We must lose, before we can appreciate the win.

We must experience heartbreak, before we can fully appreciate a loving relationship.

We must fall, before we rise.

And vice versa.

Life will always be here to keep you on your toes, and God (or whichever higher power you believe in), will not let you fall, even when the world is telling you otherwise.

Listen sis,

You got this.

Be a badass.

If you want out of your soul-sucking, bullshit situation, you better start dreaming.

No matter how foggy or smoggy.

xo,

dee