CrisiS 101

For the most part, I have an all or nothing way of thinking...

It’s either all love, or all hate.

I'm either all in, or completely out.

I either go 100%, or merely nothing at all.

I either believe you fully, or not at all.

Don't get me wrong here. I'm really great putting myself in someone else shoes, changing perspectives, forgiving others, seeing past flaws and mistakes. Equally, I have definitely half assed a few workouts and exams, stormed out of numerous buildings and just said "no" before I've even started.

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However, those passions of mine, they're unique

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Competing - all in, giving it 100%.

My nutrition course - all in, finishing early.

My significant - all in, probably to a fault to be honest.

Believing the chaos in my head - OH BABY, ALL IN!

The chaos in my head is actually obnoxious.

I give it 110% attention, and become blinded to any sort of rational thinking.

Stupid-I know. I cant help it. I feel like I'm in a tight room, claustrophobic with no breathing room or space for free-flowing thoughts.

I believe the lies and stories I make up in my head. Truly and really.

[If you’ve ever been a victim to anxiety and guilt, that inner bitch in your head, can really come up with some funny stories]

Like suddenly losing your significant other, or a job, or your home, or maybe you made a mistake with your child's homework and now “little jimmy will never pass grade 11 math”.

LOL, seriously, who the hell came up with these FALSE stories?

Oh right.. we did.

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When I’ve made a mistake, it’s a fault of mine to automatically think the worst. It’s even more of a fault of mine to have received a consequence to my acting choice, and then believe that life is essentially over as we know it.

​​I was given great advice today from a friend as I was crying from bad news.

My irrational fears of losing friends, viscous rumours, not ever being able to workout again, never being "fit", having people against me, gaining weight, needing to move away, having to start a new life, never getting in a loving relationship - and so on and so forth, we’re killing me.

... Like seriously ....

I think just about any irrational as fuck thought entered my head in that minute and a half.

I turned a simple consequence, into a zombie apocalypse of bullshit stories.

The advice my friend gave me was to breathe, go for a tan because “you love tanning and it will make you feel better” and to remember that better things will come.

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Its’ so simple. Yet we make it so bloody complex.

This advice that is obvious when I'm not feeling claustrophobic from anxiety was completely hidden behind the inner chatter of my brains storytelling.

I went into immediate crisis mode, and forgot that the ambulance was on the way.

We all make mistakes. We do. It’s human nature.

However, beating yourself up over your mistakes - will likely not solve the problem or fix a single gosh-darn thing.

Those friends that you’re scared you will lose

-- they weren’t friends, anyways.

The job that you lost

-- it was time for a change.

The relationship that’s ending

-- your true love may be sipping their drink at the coffee table right next to you.

The house that had mold

-- you’ve outgrown it anyways.

Your child failing an exam

-- it will be insignificant in 5 years, since he’s passionate about teaching guitar.

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Those stories in your head are simply that, they are stories. Just that: STORIES

Don’t give that temporary crisis, 100% of your thinking; or it will ultimately ruin your day.

Instead, acknowledge the crisis, breathe, and move past it.

The day is young and the nights are long - so go out and create your dreams.

[Whatever has been removed from your life, routine, or tasks lists - trust the universe, its for the better, baby]

Say it with me:

Dear Universe,

I accept the removal of what I deemed as a “perfect fit” in my life, and accept the new opportunities you will bring forth to me. I understand that I was repeating negative patterns, instead of evolving and enhancing my life. I accept that the new opportunities coming, will enhance my well-being, and further my journey to reaching a more purposeful life. I accept the challenges that will come with the removal of the old, and the challenges of b beginning a new chapter.

Just as the moon goes through phases, I do too. I know this new phase will bring forth great treasures, insights and joyful activities. I believe that you are doing what is in my best interest, to serve me a better life.

May abundance of love, joy, happiness and purpose be presented to me, and may peace be found within”.

Happy Hippie Vibing

Xo,

dee